life's been bad lately.The one I really love rejected me.haish.how sad.The reason is because I ask her to forget bout me.Cause at that time I'm angry at her.kay I'll type what happen kays?
here we go.

(Before that,this girl was my friend's sis.Me and her was just lovers have not yet in relationship.But she told me that she treat me like her boyfriend.We are lovers cause she's not ready for me yet.So i told her that I'm gonna wait for her although it take a long time,as long as she didn't go to other guys.)

I was chatting with her thru MSN.I miss her alot cause she lately didn't call me.So I said to her that pass few days she didn't call me,I dreamt I'm searching for her plus I did a msg thinggy to the Radio,RIA,saying "(her nick),I rindu kn you taw - dari(my nick)"..meaning"(her) I miss you - from (me)"..and you know what she says?"Why you did that?What if my mum knows?!"Like what the hell?I tought it was a sweet thing to do towards loving birds.To her what I did was wrong.She scared that her mum knows and scolded her.I was heartbroken.So from that incident we start to quarelled thru MSN.I was tired quarelling with her so I said that I got to go.cause my friend was waiting for me to come down.She ask why must I offline at that time.It's already 12 a.m.I can't tell her that I'm slacking with my friends.Cause the quarell might be worse.I still said that I need to go.Then she ignore me so I offline and went down to meet my friend.

When I met my friends I didn't make a moody face instead I was smiling all the way.I didn't want them to see me sad.About 30 mins later,I sms my friend,which is her sister,saying that

"__ sorry ganggu kao.bagitaw adeq kao aku minta maaf"
which mean,
"__ sorry for disturbing you.Tell your sis I'm sorry."

Then suddenly my hp rang,and it was her who call me.I picked it up and kena fucked up.She scolded me why must I tell her sister,which is my fren.I was lost.When did I told her sis?I just sms that to tell her I'm sorry.She said that she don't like guys who complained to her sis.All the way she scolded me and just keep asking for forgiveness.I love her so much.I can't bear to scold her.Then my heart can't take it anymore so I say to her,

"eu,lupekan I.bye.(put down the phone)"
which mean,
"you,forget bout me.bye."

after that,she didn't call me at all.Actualy I didn't mean it.

The next day I try to call her.She kept ignoring my call.What she did was picking up the phone and putting it down.I didn't get the chance to talk to her.At night I talk to her sis and ask her to meet me.Then she call me,asking what I want?

HER:you ask me to forget bout you right?What you want from me?Stop bothering me.
ME:I wanna talk to you.Lets settle this quarell thinggy.
HER:You already ask me to forget bout you what?I'm hurt you know.
ME:I'm sorry.I didn't mean it.I'm in the angry mood.PLease understand me.
HER:You thing after what you say is easy to forgive you?
(Translate from malay lang to eng)

The conversation kept on and on.
I was sad and down.Just because of that bloody phrase,our relationship kept futher and futher.
So at that night I ask fai and e'ein to follow me go to her block.I need fai cause fai knows how to physco her plus she follow what fai says.So we reached and I ask fai to called her and ask her to come down and she did.

I tried my best to talk to her but she kept rejecting me.She says that the duration I waited for her just treat as we're in relationship and now she didn't want me back cause she hate patching up.This mean that I'm with her for just one month.I can't say anything anymore.
I kept begging her ,and know what she says?

"I will forgive you but after this we're just friends.Your option either this or I will not forgive at all and will hate you forever."

WTF??What did I do??Untill she says like that??I kept begging and begging even cried.I never ever did like this before toward girls.eShe's the one I really really love.Atlast I give up.I said to her that I choose the one which we gonna be friends.After that she started to cry.I wipe her tears away and asked why you cried?are'nt we gonna be friends?She said that she don't want ,me to think she gave me false hope.Not leting her to be sad anymore,I said that she did not.It's all my fault.She didn't know what my heart says.She did give me false hope.haish what to do if her attitude is like this.

I choose being friends cause I love her so much.No one knows how much I love her.What she say was She love me but she can't accept me anymore for what i'd said to her the day before.
haisss.

Ouh god please..Give her back to me.I love her so much.please I beg you.

Of all things,I was confused for what she gonna be scared if her mum hears the radio thinggy.As if there's onli one (her name)on this earth.so stupid sia.haisssssssss.

Anyway,this story is for you to enjoy not for you to spread.After reading this please don't ask me what had happen.I type all of the things that happened that two days of sadness.

till here then,
good bye